El Fin

“I’m leeeeavin, on a jet plane! Don’t know when I’ll be back again…” Haha, yes, it’s 2:39 am. I have to be awake at 4:30, and that  song-turned-super-cliche is stuck in my head.  This will be my last post, from Mexico at least.  I’ve come to find that I like this whole blog thing… I think I’m going to start a new category for life back home. I’m starting my SENIOR year in COLLEGE (yes, it freaks me out just as much as you), so there are lost of decisions to be made, fun to have, and news to report, and this is a pretty neat-o way to do it. So remember me here at wordpress.com!

But in wrapping up Mexico, I find myself a little lost for words.  This trip has been an amazing experience, and I am SO happy I was blessed to have it.  It has left me feeling more comfortable with and passionate about my Spanish. It has left me more confident in my own abilities to be out in this world and feeling at least a little older. It has left me with friends and memories I will absolutely never forget. At the moment, it has left me sad.

I had to say goodbye to Laura, one of my official travel buddy and one of my best CEPE friends last night. That’s when the tears first started. My Georgia crew, the crazy wonderful, seriously indescribable amigos, who probably made this whole trip for me, left this morning around 5:30. You better believe we didn’t waste a minute of their last night here on sleep.  It was all I could do not to crawl in one of their suitcases, haha… I might have asked if I could once or twice though.   Then, Rosa and I went out for one more day of shopping together at this awesome cultural market we’ve come to call the “hippie” market.  Lucky for me, we go to the same school, so no doubts I’ll see her again real soon, but still sad to leave this house and the little family of sisters she, Marianna, and I have become.  And speaking of, then there’s Marianna… because I’m leaving so early, I had to say my goodbye’s to her tonight before she went to bed.  Oh my. She sat with me while I ate my late night packing snack and we had our last little dinner table conversation.  We talked about everything from packing, to how much I’ve enjoyed my experience here, my friends, her friends, CEPE, the Spanish phrases that I know have become a habit (just wait, you’ll hear them…), and how much I’ve learned since I’ve been here. It’s funny how things come full circle. The first night, I sat at that table terrified. It was all I could do not to physically run out of room. Tonight, I sat there and didn’t want to ever leave. We started with tears of fear and I’m leaving with tears of sadness.

I’m still stuck in that bittersweet limbo land I wrote about a couple of post ago. Nobody feel like I’m not excited to get home! I definitely am. It’s just such a strange, sad feeling to know that something you have, some experience, some part of your life, will never be again. Dramatic, yes. But true, nonetheless.  Wheel of the world, I suppose.

So yes, it’s been a sad day. All my bags are packed. Goodbye’s have been said. All that’s left now is the little journey home, and the cab will be here in 2 hours. So i guess we could say the hardest part is over. I’m not going to pretend like I’m not going to have to adjust a little when I get back home, though. Like I said, it’s interesting how quicly people, places, and things become your familiar. I’ve got a little life here in Guadalajara – a routine, habits, etc. that might cross the border with me. So, just for the record, if I do something weird in the next couple of days, I apologize! But at this point, I really can’t wait to be home. Back to my family, my best friends, my Bently Boo and Sammy Dog, my bed, car, apartment, bathroom, and clean, Arkansas air.

But anyway, I suppose I should try to get at least a little sleep before I start the trek home. However, first, I would just like to take this opportunity to thank all of you that have followed this blog over the past 5 weeks, left encouraging comments, sent encouraging and helpful emails, facebook messages, and most importantly, prayers. Thank you for listening to my ramblings about my experiences here that have meant so much to me. Overall, your interest and support have made me feel very loved and missed. I hope yall were at least a little  entertained .  Like I said,  I plan on keeping this little site going for a while, so please, check back from time to time! Ya never really know what I’m going to get into next… well, I don’t at least! I love and miss all of you! God bless, and I’ll see yall on the other side of the border!

Adios.